A whole journal dedicated just for you, what an honour! You better pay some serious attention, because I won't repeat this. These are my honest thoughts about you, and I mean every single word.

First of all, I think you need a serious attitude change, you seem to think it’s okay to bash people, but when anyone disagrees with you, the whole world comes to an end. You make a mountain of a molehill all the time, you're constantly bitching around with people who don't happen to share the same thoughts with you.

You're also always trying to act all hardcore, but the second someone bites back you're scared shitless, "threating" to leave dA, telling people how hurt you are and how much you've been crying. You're acting like a child, thinking it's okay to play rough, but when people treat you the same way you treated them, you think the world is so unfair. Är man med i leken får man tåla steken.

Also, you think it's strange that people make fun of you on YouTube and "bully" you by making videos about you. Well, I think you deserved it; you're basically serving yourself on a platter and almost begging for people to tease you. Like in this video: [link] You're acting like a retard, yet you're surprised that people treat you like one. I just don't get it, why, why are you humiliating yourself like this? Are you really that desperate? You know, there are better ways of getting attention. And your horrid English really made me drop some of my respect for you the first time I heard it. No offence, really, but it’s so bad that I can barely stand it. Just keep practicing.

Speaking of bullying, you seem to be quite insecure in what bullying really is. You see, when someone is constantly pestering you and is hurting you on purpose over and over again, even when you tell the person to stop, that is bullying. I was just merely mocking you. Though I did not intend any harm. I guess I owe you an apology. But you should learn the difference between mocking and bullying.

Now, I don’t really want to bring this up, but I will; your reviews. They’re decent, but you’re being too harsh on many points. You only see the negative things in game/movies you don’t happen to like, and only see the good in games you like. Now, a good reviewer isn’t praising games they like, they find the flaws too, because no game is perfect. A proper review contains both positive and negative things. Keep that in mind.

Not only that, but your language? You’re seriously overusing the word “fuck”, making it sound incredibly boring. What are you trying to do, imitate the AVGN? Wannabees don’t get far, you know, well, not usually, people just point and laugh at them. It’s not the least bit enjoyable having to read your overreactions and your attempts at being “funny” in a violent way.

My major complaint is your view on religions. I seriously don’t know how to start, but it has to be said, so here we go! First of all, fine, you don’t like Christianity, it’s your choice. But would it be too much to ask of you to just chill down a little? No need to make such a big fuss! Besides, YOU are talking about Christians as if we’d all be jerks because some are trying to get you all religious and stuff. Who do you think you are, talking like that? You’re saying that we Christians should accept your choice to not believe in God, and then you call what we believe in a bunch of bullshit? Fine, have your opinions, but keep them to yourself, or express them in a non-offending way, because this is serious stuff. And what’s so bad about having faith? We’re not wandering psychos you know. Well, I am, a little, because I’m a perverted maniac, but that’s something completely different that has nothing to do with the subject. We choose to believe because we want to have something to hope for, that there’s more than the misery down on earth, it makes our lives a tad brighter, and often keeps us from getting as miserable as you are. Because even when everything is lost, we know there’s still hope. It keeps our spirits up. Sometimes it comes in handy. But I don’t quite understand you, you say that we should accept you, yet you can’t accept us, you insult us, call what we believe in bullshit, and expect us to just deal with it? Then you’re putting up rules for what we can and can’t believe if we still want to be your friends? Do you really want religion get in the way of your friendships? What kind of person are you? What were you thinking?

Also, why do you feel so offended by the phrase “you will go to Hell”? If you don’t believe in God, you don’t believe in Heaven, and if you don’t believe in Heaven, you don’t believe in Hell, therefore it shouldn’t bother you. Besides, if you don’t believe in God, why the FUCK do you think that God would let you into Heaven? Especially after all the horrible things you said? It’s like, I would throw a great party and you would go spread a bunch of bullshit about me, then expect me to let you in! I would just say, well, go to Hell! Fuck off! Get out of here!

Now, this is gonna get interesting... was just trying to warn you, if you don’t believe in God, you will go to Hell, she didn’t want you to, she wanted to help you, but you just called her idiot! She was never trying to offend you! Even after you said all those horrible things to her! You just couldn’t accept her, it was her way to show that she cares, and even when she was gonna block you, she said that she’ll pray for you! She is a good person, a good-hearted person who wants you well, she never said that she WANTED you to go to Hell! And you, with your arrogant selfish attitude, pushed the limit until you screwed your friendship with her! She even apologised on several occasions, when YOU were supposed to! But you just kept going over her like a bulldozer, blaming all your problems on her, making yourself look like the victim but YOU were the one acting like a DOUCHE! You know what? In her place, I wouldn’t say that “I’ll pray for you”. I would say: “Fine! Stick your cock up your ass! Go to hell! Enjoy! FUCK YOU!” Or something like that. Something nasty. I admire her patience with you, the fact that she wanted to give the friendship another chance even when you spoke to her like that.

Also, I know what you’re going to come with: “I have depression, I don’t feel good, blah blah blah self pity.” I know you’re depressed, everybody gets depressed, some more and some less. But depression doesn’t give you the rights to treat people the way you want. That’s life. You’ll have to adjust. Swallow the bitter truths. If you can’t get over your depression, you should take a break from internet, don’t take everything so seriously, chill out. If we could blame our problems for our behaviour, then the world would be a terrible place. I mean, imagine if every time I got pms. I could just yell and scream at everyone, then get away with it. Every single time. We have to restrict ourselves, hold the negative emotions back, sometimes it can be incredibly difficult, I know, believe it or not, despite having a good life, I have picked up our four big kitchen knives and pondered for 10 minutes on which one should let my blood float. Of course I never took the step, and I never will, but the thought is often haunting me. Sometimes life feels meaningless, we only see the bad and we don’t understand why we should continue. We shouldn’t let out our anger, frustration, sadness and misery on others, especially not our friends. Crying it out a little now and then or just punching a brick wall until your fists bleed, body slamming a punching bag or listen to some heavy metal. Let the anger of the music wash over you, and let your anger die out when the song ends.

Take your time reflecting over these words, I might be right, then you can insult me all you want, I totally understand you, but you’ll have to change your attitude a little, for your own sake, before more journals like this one will pop up, before more of your friends turn their backs on you.



Whew, prolly my longest rant so far. Let's hope it's my last. The Raging Teenager has spoken.